On the DL

I think my significant other is on to me. Maybe it was just my own guilt as I walking by her to go see my new luv. It's funny how one day we can be totally content with our relationships and then the next day stumble into something new. It doesn't matter how great the current one is. She's old news. Not exciting. Well, today, I did my best to stay away from Di. I didn't immediately run back to my SO, but eventually, tonight I did. I couldn't take the looks I got when I would walk by. The silent treatment can be deafening. So I went back and begged for forgiveness. At first she was a little standoff-ish. Then I started to hold her, massage her legs a bit, and she slid right back into the palm of my hand. She didnt let me down either. I'm still amazed at her ability to narrow her focus and blur everything else out.

It felt good to be together again. I'm still thinking about Di, but at 40, Miss D is my age and she can bring out the best in me much better than Di. I can regress all the way to 17 when I'm with Di. I know we'll spend more time together, but Di will never be my D40.